Monday, November 2, 2009

Big Brother


Dear Landon,

I'm sorry you were sick this week and I had to leave you for almost three days. And then when I came home, I had a new baby with me. Don't worry, he could never replace you. You will always have an important role in our family. You are special for so many reasons. You are the firstborn, the big brother, you made me a Mommy.

I love when you kiss your brother. I love how much concern you show when he cries. I love that you try to give him toys even though he can't hold them yet. It's nice of you to share and feed him goldfish crackers, but he's not quite ready. I know this week has been rough for you, but I think you're doing great, and that Harper is lucky to have a brother like you.

Daddy and I love you so much!

Love,

Mama

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Labor Story


I know the part everyone wants to read about is how labor went. I don't blame you. I want to hear the labor story of every woman who walked the face of the earth. It's fascinating to me.
Monday morning Bubba and I woke up with a lovely cough and some serious congestion, so we went to the Emergency Room. The line was ridiculously long, so I decided to see if his doctor could squeeze him in later in the week. Anthony said, "Well, since we're already at the hospital, why don't you go up to labor and delivery and have them check you." I have a history of silent cervical dilation, so it's never a bad idea.

Landon and Anthony went to the mall. I went up to L&D. My midwife, Christine checked me and I was only 1-2 cm! Dr. Bass said I was 3 cm more three weeks ago! (Turns out my water bag was hanging out, so I felt like 1-2) I said, "Okay, I'm going home to do laundry." And Christine suggested I walk around for an hour first. So, I power walked in circles while the nurses and med students laughed at me. They were like, "You really want it to happen today, don't you? It's not gonna happen."

Christine checked me after an hour and I was a 5! I hadn't felt a single contraction, so I was feeling pretty excited. She said she has delivered thousands of babies and has never seen someone labor like that. I decided to keep walking around, and 15 minutes later I was a 7. At this point, I really did not want my water to break on the floor, so I decided to sit down.

Nikki and I were eating Reeces, reading Star magazines, and asking Anthony questions like, "Would you rather marry Oprah or Secretary of State Hillary Clinton?"

I wasn't making any progress just sitting there, so Christine decided to break my water. I wanted an intrathecal first, just to make sure I didn't feel any pain. It's kind of like an epidural, but it's a one time shot and wears off in 3 hours. So ofcourse, three hours later he's still not born, and I felt some pretty heavy contractions. Nikki timed them. 4 minutes on, 30 seconds off. That was pretty awesome. Within about a half hour I very suddenly felt the urge to push. I yelled, "I'm pushing!" And the nurse ran in. The intrathecal had worn off entirely, and I am not good at pushing. It was the most intense pain of my life. I thought about Landon and how much I love him; how he was worth every pain, and this baby would be too. I prayed. After almost an hour, when I thought I could not take it anymore, the angels entered in and Harper was born.

I was thrilled to hear him cry right away, and they placed his tiny little body right on my chest. He sobbed and sobbed and held onto me. He kept one eye open and looked around while clinging tightly to my chest. We stayed like that for over an hour, and it was bliss. I started to feed him and tears welled up in my eyes. I had this surge of love overcome me completely, as his crying subsided and I was able to comfort him. It was an amazing day, and just like Landon, he was totally worth it!

"There is no other closeness in human life like the closeness between a mother and her baby."

--Susan Cheever

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Here

Harper David Matthews
was born at 8:54 p.m. on Monday, October 26, 2009.
He weighed 7 lbs, 11 oz and was 20.5 inches long.

Once again, I am in love.

Also, congratulations to my dear friend, Andrea who brought Jeremiah Eloy into the world on the exact same day.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Pumpkin Farm

a wiggly boy who just wanted to play

he was in pumpkin heaven, after all.

three of my favorite ladies, thanks for bringing your cute families!

it was a wonderful night.
To see our trip from last year click HERE. Crazy how Bubba has grown since then! Oh, and me too.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Spooky Cookie

I love holidays! Especially Halloween. I've had my front porch decorated since the beginning of September. Is that lame or what? I just love it though! The pumpkin mazes, haunted houses, fun decorations, and the best parts-- dressing up and getting candy!


So, the other night we did our part to add to the Halloween spirit and decorated spooky cookies with Nikki and Sheldon. Fact: October is National Cookie month. Weird, since we get plenty of candy. I'm not complaining; the more sugar, the better. ;)

*sorry, some of these are sideways

There's either a baby in there, or I've had way too much sugar. Or both.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Prayer

{bubba in the nicu}
I found out at my appointment today that I have not made any progress this week. Despite daily (sometimes hourly) contractions, I am still 3 cm. Amazing.

Once again, I am glad that baby has stayed in this long, and it is looking like he will make it to term. It's been kind of an emotional whirlwind wondering when he's going to come, and I'm starting to feel like I can finally relax. Although the end of pregnancy can be extremely uncomfortable, I'm so thrilled that the chances of him spending time in the NICU are slim.

I am grateful to have a Heavenly Father who loves us and listens to our prayers. Sometimes it takes a trial of sorts to bring us to our knees and remind us of where are blessings come from. I hope that even in times of good, I can remember to pray always. My greatest desire is to maintain a close relationship with my Father in Heaven; to have His spirit with me and recieve the guidance that we all need so much. I am humbled and grateful for all the blessings we have recieved from His hands. Through prayer I have been given peace.


{this oh-so-lovely picture of me demonstrates what a contraction feels like}
I'll be praying a lot during those.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Micke Grove Zoo

Bubba turned 18 months yesterday. I feel like the time has flown by so quickly, but at the same time I feel like I've been a mother forever. You kind of forget what life was like before kids. I was just looking at old photos, and it's so crazy how different things are now. I can honestly say though, the last 18 months have been the happiest of my life, the last 2 1/2 years, really. I think part of that is just learning to put others before yourself. When you become a spouse and then a parent, you realize what's really important. You learn to love and serve each other, and that's the best part of life.

I've been 3 cm dilated since at least Friday, so who knows when the next baby is coming. I really wanted to make sure we had a day for just Bubba before he gets here. So, we took Bubs to the zoo yesterday with Nikki and Sheldon. Bubba called almost every mammal a dog, including the monkeys. And every bird was a duck. He cracks me up.


















{the adorable Nikki & Sheldon}
















{the *three* loves of my life}

And the award for creepiest animal goes to...















This baboon that was staring right at me. Freaky! And this bald bird. Seriously, these pictures don't even do the creepiness justice.